Soft

Few days ago, I look through my sms folder to see what msgs I can delete as my phone has been alerting me on the lack of space available due to my constantly reaching the 1000 sms limit. After much thought, I finally decided to delete all my sms exchanges with a certain someone, which incidentally holds the most amount of space in my phone's memory. Some things are best kept for memories, but there are certain things which are not and I have begun to realise that those msgs falls into the latter category.

In my life thus far, I have always been someone, whom you can say, abit "too soft-hearted" on the inside. I often give in to people and offer my apologies for something which I may not be wrong at. These have made certain individuals to take advantage of me. Being a soft-heartie has its pros and cons. I'll never forget during my last weeks NS life how my supervisor had advised me regarding this aspect of mine, after it appears that a certain colleague has taken advantage of my soft-hearted nature.

Back to the person related to the disposed msgs, I am beginning to wonder why did I apologise for something that does not appear to be my fault. Is it because of my desire not to lose a friend, even though I strongly felt cheated by the actions? Ultimately, I guess the reason boils down to the character of mine mentioned above.

But now, I am beginning to learn the lessons. No matter what, I just have to change. For my own sake, I just cannot be too soft-hearted anymore. I need to learn to say No and make decisions myself, cos looking at my age now, and no matter how high I've studied, it will be a shame if I can't. Maybe it's true that possessing too much of something is the not the best every time.

Okay, enough of my pouring, it's time to go back to my D.I.E now..