Reserved

Started my reservist a couple of days ago. I used to be excited whenever I'm recalled for duty. I used to enjoy reporting before the shift and go through it (no matter how tough the day is) with a positive attitude. But now, things seem different. It's no longer exciting, it's no longer enjoyable. It feels like I'm going to work and putting on a facade everyday, pretending to be happy and interested in what others are telling me. Maybe, I've become a selfish person. Maybe. Somehow, it feels like I'm slipping down a slippery slope...


Nobody would probably touch me again. I would probably live the rest of my life alone. But that's okay I guess. We came into this world alone. We go through our lives alone. And in the end, we still would leave this world alone. Doesn't make much difference.

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