Two years have passed, how many more to go?

2014 is coming to an end and it's the time when we pen down our thoughts and feelings for this past year.

Well, lots of things have happened - both good and bad. There was a change in my job scope, a new place and environment. As a result, I've made new friends and colleagues too. I could still remember how the news and rumours had surfaced months before that, and after much waiting and uncertainties, it finally happened in February. As sentimental as I usually am, I had quite a hard time transiting to a new workplace and coping with much more additional workload than I previously had. Knocking off late from work was the norm. Now, going into my 2nd year in a couple of months time, I suppose life has been better. I've begun to take things easier and manage my workload better. Still, I kinda miss being back at where I previously was..

With a blink of an eye, I've been on this job for more than 2 years. How time flies. Every now and then, I would think to myself, would I stay or move on? Well, like I've always told my friends when they asked, I'll probably look at where I land for my next posting before deciding my next step.

As for my social life, well, I've made and lost friends this past year. I suppose that's not unusual cos as they say, friends come and go; only few would stay. I used to be someone who goes all the way trying to keep whatever relationships I have whatever people, apologising for the things I don't do wrong, being at the mercy of those around me. Well, not anymore. Life is short. If those people choose to get away from me, be sensitive in every little things and get pissed even though I've apologised or not my fault, and only said hi when they need something, then goodbye. Time is too precious for me to fret over these things. What's the use of trying to mend things when I'm treated like shit again and again?

I've met with couple of my friends for some catching-up the past week. One of them is married but is having some trouble due to certain issues. Hearing his story, I could understand why friends have been telling me that it's not all rosy after you're married. I suppose, married life has its own pros and cons, as is single life. Going out with the other friend to Gardens By The Bay two days ago made me rekindled my past for a moment. A familiar place, familiar food, but with a different person. At one point, she asked asked about my previous relationship, on why I choose to go out with the person even though it was over. I got stumped for a moment. This question has been posed to me many times before. Well, half of it is because of the thinking that we could still be friends (and that we should always try to keep friendships) while the other half, admittedly is because I was still hoping. Now, I just think of how stupid I was. Sure, there are many stages of a breakup. But if I were to cease the meet-ups and communications at the start, I agree with my friend that it could have been faster to move on with my life. Especially so if you could feel that the other party are not so interested and are distancing themselves from you. But in a way, I'm also glad that this happened which have helped me grow as a person and learn on what to do and not to do in future.

As 2015 arrives, it is a step closer to my big 3. Am I getting pressured from my friends and family to settle down? Yes. Do I imagine myself meeting my other half and starting a family? Yes. Am I desperate to find her? No. Well, I think the priority for this coming year for me is to catch-up with friends whom I haven't met for some time and to go out and have fun and just let nature takes it course. But the stumbling block I foresee is that some would be busy with their own personal lives for meet-ups. And it's also a pity that there's this social perception that when there are only two persons of opposite sex going out together, it would be deemed that they are romantically involved or in some sort of relationship. Why can't they just be two friends who go out to have fun? 

But heck, we only live once. I shall do what I want to do. With this mindset, I'm hoping that I can finally get my hands on the 4-wheels which has been a lifelong dream next year! Yes, some people are questioning the rationale of buying one with the exorbitant prices these days. But like I said earlier, we only live once. I don't see the prices going very much south soon, so if not now, when?

Everything we see and experience is nothing but temporary. They will one day come to an end. Lets live and treasure the moments while we still can. The people and things around us may come and go. Even if they don't last, I'm glad that at least once in my life I've got to experience and be with them.. even for a fleeting moment.

Have a good year ahead! :)