Relapse

Sometimes, I just hate how things ended abruptly. I asked myself, why, why, why? Why must it end this way so suddenly, without any warning?

I bumped into couples when I go to work, from work and everywhere. Most of my friends are starting to get attached, engaged or married. Yes, I'm happy for them. But questions did not escape my mind. Why must my fate be like this? What have I done wrong? What did I do to deserve this?

Sometimes I envy those who can share their problems with their family freely. At the very least, there will be listening ears they can turn to. I've never showed my weak side in front of my family. Most of the time, I just smiled it off when they asked questions. In their eyes, I'm just a naturally happy person who is satisfied with what I have. In fact, I'm just a weak person who hides behind this facade cos I just don't want them to worry. But sometimes, bottling up your problems is tough. Sigh.

I used to bid goodbyes with a happy feeling each time. But ever since the fateful day, I always depart with an empty feeling.


After some time, I shed some precious tears again, today.

:'(