Monday, October 03, 2005

Sian Sian FYP!!

 

Heyzz, it's the first day of the semestral break but guess what? I was already back in sch today (arrgghh) to do my stupid final year project!! And most likely I'll be going back again tmr and thursday and definitely friday.. What?!?! That's 4/5 weekdays!!!! What kind of holiday is this!!! I'm truly yearning for a REAL holiday. Yeah, I really need a break! A period of time where you can truly rest your mind and soul and not worry about anything else. But then, I guess that kind of time is slowly going away from you as you grew up. So, in other words, wishing for a long relaxing time at this age is as good as wishing that Jessica Hsuan would fall for me (hahahaa.. still got mood to joke eh?).

Everytime I think about my fyp, I somehow begin to panic. I'm truly scared that we will not have enough time to finish the project. I'm not sure if my other grp members share the same sentiments but yeah, that's how I'm feeling these days everytime the letters FYP comes to mind. I even made a lie today(luckily fasting month not here yet..lolx). When the TSO asked me how's my project, I told her we are left with a little bit more when in fact there's loads yet to be done. Initially, I thought that when exams are over, I can relax a bit. How wrong was I! The stress level is still there and I can say it's more than during the exam period! It didn't help when at one time, you thought you are on the verge of succeeding. But at the next moment, everything seems to go against you. No matter how hard you try, you just can't repeat whatever successful things you've done earlier. That feeling sucks! It truly is. And it didn't help much either having a supervisor that doesn't seems to have any care about your project (unless you approach her for questions). When I see some of my friends' supervisors visiting them once in a while asking for their progress, it makes me wonder, where is my supervisor? How come she doesn't seem concerned at all about our progress? Is she busy? But then, even if she is busy, I don't believe she can't set a little amount of time for our project. She is after all the SUPERVISOR
for god's sake. And the role of a supervisor is to supervise the people under him/her right? If he/she sits in her office most of the time(or rather all the time) I think the position shld be changed to Manager instead(a high-ranking manager at that!). That's what I learnt from Ms Susan Khong 's PQM. lolx.

Haiz. Nvm, don't wanna talk further on the fyp. It just makes my blood boil, my mind going in circles and my heart beating faster everytime I tink about it! This fyp thingy even gave bruises and bumps on my hands today!! Don't ask me how I get it. It just..... got there somehow. sigh. That's it for this post, no mood to blog further. Adios~! SeLaMaT MenYamBut BuLaN RaMaDhAN YaNg PerNuh BaRaKah to all muslims.

*knock knock*
Good afternoon Mdm.
I'm looking for true love.
Know if I can buy any here or could you point me in the right direction? =PpP

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