Loneliness

Loneliness, a part of me that I never wanted. A dream I hoped would've never come true but did. A pain in my heart that seemed to be boundless.

As I stepped into the room of people. I'm ignored, forgotten, unimportant.

I made my way to the back of the room and took an empty seat. Far from them. Far from the reality so cruel. My gaze, downcast. My heart, hiding in the insignificant shadow of my own grief.

"Jared! It's your turn now!"

I stepped out of my shadow. Into the scalding open. My eyes, rivet from the light. I spoke my part. Not knowing if I was noticed or otherwise. From far, a smirk appeared. I stepped back nearer, almost to the comforting darkness. So near yet so far. My hope shattered into infinite pieces. The broken force piercing right into my very being.

When the cue was over, I hurried back into my dark homage. Back into my dream, back into seclusion. My world in which holds no soul but me. A world I've to myself. I dared to venture out...I was never belonged. On to my own dimension, a hidden mist of words which I speak now , I dwell...

Loneliness... a part of me I never wanted...never did...

~Unfoundlegacy(KT)~

The piece above is not written by me but yeah, it somehow describe how I'm feeling now.. haiz..

And i've got weird dreams yesterday nite.. There were my lecturers, my poly classmates, my sec sch friends... so many pple but at different scenes.. But there's one scene which i remembered quite vividly.. I was with my sec sch classmates playing LAN games and surprisingly, there's this girl classmate(poly) in that scence too.. I shall not disclose on who it is in case i got beaten up by a certain sum1 =X.. haaa... but it's weird... weird becoz of that scene... and weird becoz this is the first time a few dreams came to me at one shot at a single night.. But nevertheless, I shall take them as just dreams that fills our mind when we are in deep slp.. shall not dwell on them too much, i guess..