When Fantasy is much better than Reality
Exactly 1 month after my last update, I'm back here to post again!! WoohOoO~!~! Let's update on what happen this past week(not month! lolx)..
Well, had a class gathering last tuesday. It was an eating outing cum christmas gathering @ Marina Square. It's also a special time as in, this will be our last PTN gathering before we graduate next year. Sadly though, the class tutor only came for a brief moment before disappearing. After the meal, we proceeded on the exchanging of presents. It's funny how we made our eating area there as if we own the place.. haha.. And yeah, the present I got was from Qianhui (whom amazingly also got the same present from someone else too) and my present went to Zhiyong.
After the gift exchange, we decided to go to the K-box outlet there. I was hesistant at first since I was still nursing a cough(and I'm still am) that time. But nevertheless, I decided to join in the fun since that may be the last time the class went out together. Sang a few songs with the hoarse voice of mine..lolx.. Oh yeah, we were actually supposed to finish the session by 10pm, but we managed to delay it till 11.30.. got an extra 1 1/2 hours!! hahaa... After that, me, QH and Sam rushed to City Hall to catch the last trains from there..
Here's some pics from the outing.
Was supposed to join in another X'mas gathering on Saturday but was still sick.. Sorry to the organisers -_-
Decided to move my lazy bump of the bed and go for a jog this morning. But after a few mins of running, I didn't feel really well. Was practically panting after a few hundred metres. Didn't feel anything like this before. I've learnt one thing from today's experience though.
That is never to exercise when you are experiencing one of the following:
1) Not feeling well
2) Not having enough sleep the day before
3) Having too much thoughts about other things that's affecting your concentration
Yeap, the third point. I've been thinking alot lately, especially the last few days. Things such as friendship and love keep filling my mind. Friendship wise, I've discovered that some people around me are not sincere at all. The moment they lied, it really shows how insincere they are. Yes, for me, being truthful is part of being sincere. So, if you lie to me, it really goes to show how sincere you are to me and our friendship. And furthermore, after the lie was made the least I expect would be an explanation but I received none at all! Friends? I would say we becoming to look more like acquaintance more than anything else.
And yeah, another thing that's bothering me is the fact I think I'm beginning to fall for someone whom I'm not supposed to. Yes, I did have a crush on her before and it died down after a while BUT somehow, it's beginning to rekindle now. And I'm not supposed to fall for her because I know that there won't be any slightest possibility of us going together. This is mainly due to certain factors which I shall not elaborate here. And I also know that by not stopping myself from falling for her, I will repeat the same mistake 2 years ago which had left me a huge scar. Yet, despite knowing all these though, I'm still allowing myself in my life of illusion and fantasy. Hmm, I guess this happened when fantasy is so much better than reality? I don't know but it seems that I'm choosing to sink deeper into this mess. And the deeper I sink, the more hurt I would get. Is this called self-destruction?
Had weird dreams yesterday. 3 of them in fact! And I tink they are more suited to be called nightmares than dreams. One of it depicted a scene of me stuttering very badly in a presentation. I think that was the worst presentation I have ever had. Another nightmare, I forgot what was it about at this point of typing. But the last one left me 'deep impression'. I was lost in this big park with not knowing where to exit. I was really feeling helpless then. A check with a dream interpretation website on that dream reads the following, "To dream that you are lost, suggests that you have lost your direction in life or that you have lost sight of your goals. You may be feeling worried and insecure about the path you are taking in life." Hmm, I guess whatever you think in the day follows you through the night.
Btw, during this festive season, I wanna wish everyone a Merry X'Mas and a Happy New Year!! Have you fulfilled ur new year resolutions yet? If not, hurry!! You only have a few days left!! hahaa..
And yeah, although she may not be reading this, HaPpY 21st Birthday to Ellyana!! May all her wishes and dreamz come true!! All the very best in her upcoming years ahead! Wishing her the best of luck and lots of happiness! =D
P.S: Sorry for this long post. I hope I did not bore you(whoever that still reads this blog).
Well, had a class gathering last tuesday. It was an eating outing cum christmas gathering @ Marina Square. It's also a special time as in, this will be our last PTN gathering before we graduate next year. Sadly though, the class tutor only came for a brief moment before disappearing. After the meal, we proceeded on the exchanging of presents. It's funny how we made our eating area there as if we own the place.. haha.. And yeah, the present I got was from Qianhui (whom amazingly also got the same present from someone else too) and my present went to Zhiyong.
After the gift exchange, we decided to go to the K-box outlet there. I was hesistant at first since I was still nursing a cough(and I'm still am) that time. But nevertheless, I decided to join in the fun since that may be the last time the class went out together. Sang a few songs with the hoarse voice of mine..lolx.. Oh yeah, we were actually supposed to finish the session by 10pm, but we managed to delay it till 11.30.. got an extra 1 1/2 hours!! hahaa... After that, me, QH and Sam rushed to City Hall to catch the last trains from there..
Here's some pics from the outing.
Family photo look-alike...lolx.. Yong, Ting, Sam and Me
A 'lucky guy' pic. Me surrounded with pretty ladies.. lolx..(Clockwise: Me, Abigail, Zhiting, Chiew Yen, Qianhui and Sheryl)
Me and Yong, the receipient of my lamp present.
Me and, QH, whom bought the present which I got. Notice there's two similar mug on the table. yes, she got a similar present from someone else too! lolx
Me and Doreen, my mei nu the class rep..lolx..
Lastly, the class pic.. This will be very memorable in years to come.
Was supposed to join in another X'mas gathering on Saturday but was still sick.. Sorry to the organisers -_-
Decided to move my lazy bump of the bed and go for a jog this morning. But after a few mins of running, I didn't feel really well. Was practically panting after a few hundred metres. Didn't feel anything like this before. I've learnt one thing from today's experience though.
That is never to exercise when you are experiencing one of the following:
1) Not feeling well
2) Not having enough sleep the day before
3) Having too much thoughts about other things that's affecting your concentration
Yeap, the third point. I've been thinking alot lately, especially the last few days. Things such as friendship and love keep filling my mind. Friendship wise, I've discovered that some people around me are not sincere at all. The moment they lied, it really shows how insincere they are. Yes, for me, being truthful is part of being sincere. So, if you lie to me, it really goes to show how sincere you are to me and our friendship. And furthermore, after the lie was made the least I expect would be an explanation but I received none at all! Friends? I would say we becoming to look more like acquaintance more than anything else.
And yeah, another thing that's bothering me is the fact I think I'm beginning to fall for someone whom I'm not supposed to. Yes, I did have a crush on her before and it died down after a while BUT somehow, it's beginning to rekindle now. And I'm not supposed to fall for her because I know that there won't be any slightest possibility of us going together. This is mainly due to certain factors which I shall not elaborate here. And I also know that by not stopping myself from falling for her, I will repeat the same mistake 2 years ago which had left me a huge scar. Yet, despite knowing all these though, I'm still allowing myself in my life of illusion and fantasy. Hmm, I guess this happened when fantasy is so much better than reality? I don't know but it seems that I'm choosing to sink deeper into this mess. And the deeper I sink, the more hurt I would get. Is this called self-destruction?
Had weird dreams yesterday. 3 of them in fact! And I tink they are more suited to be called nightmares than dreams. One of it depicted a scene of me stuttering very badly in a presentation. I think that was the worst presentation I have ever had. Another nightmare, I forgot what was it about at this point of typing. But the last one left me 'deep impression'. I was lost in this big park with not knowing where to exit. I was really feeling helpless then. A check with a dream interpretation website on that dream reads the following, "To dream that you are lost, suggests that you have lost your direction in life or that you have lost sight of your goals. You may be feeling worried and insecure about the path you are taking in life." Hmm, I guess whatever you think in the day follows you through the night.
Btw, during this festive season, I wanna wish everyone a Merry X'Mas and a Happy New Year!! Have you fulfilled ur new year resolutions yet? If not, hurry!! You only have a few days left!! hahaa..
And yeah, although she may not be reading this, HaPpY 21st Birthday to Ellyana!! May all her wishes and dreamz come true!! All the very best in her upcoming years ahead! Wishing her the best of luck and lots of happiness! =D
P.S: Sorry for this long post. I hope I did not bore you(whoever that still reads this blog).
posted by AnDy AriEn at 11:55 AM
~~Love is the emblem of eternity; it confounds all
notion of time~~
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