Suicide
What happens if one day you're awaken to a phone call informing you that your best friend had just passed away. What's more, the nature of the death is self-inflicted or what you called, suicide. It would a shocking and devastating news I guess and one experience which I hoped would never occur to me.
I'm writing this topic because yesterday night, when I was about to go to sleep, I chanced upon this thread started by a member of the KT forum. Apparently, she had just lost a good friend of hers via the suicide method. As I read on the replies the other members gave and the counter-replies she gave, I got a rough picture of what happened on that fateful day. And the story was so sad, it almost reduced me to tears.
What is more upsetting is that this member was just chatting with him(the friend) just an hour or so before he went away. Yeah, she was chatting with him that night and he was showing no signs of what he's going to do whatsoever. Then, he said he wanted to go sleep. Little did she or anyone else knew that the sleep would be eternal. That he would never wake up from his sleep again. The ironic thing is that he's the one who has been telling this KT member not to entertain any thoughts of suicides. But in the end, it seems he didn't practice what he preached.
Although nobody knew why he chose the path, it seems that most people blamed his girlfriend for causing his death. And naturally, this member blamed herself too for not being a good buddy and not spotting the signs on him. I've not experience anything like this before, but if I were in her shoes, I think I would be feeling as guilty as her too. Not spotting the depressing signs on him, not being able to help your best friend. And he's gone, just like that. Without saying any departing words, without saying goodbyes. It's such a tragedy. sigh.
Anyway, you can view his friendster's account recently set-up by that KT member here. Even reading through the testimonials is sad enough.=( To Herng Jye, though I may not know you, hope your're resting in peace bro!
On a personal note, as said earlier, I do hope I do not need to go through the same painful experience as the forumer. I personally feel ending one's life is both a brave and coward thing to do. It's really an irony. On one side, you're brave to cut off your life, to end your sufferings, and making yourself unable to live any bright future you might have. But on the other side, it's really a coward and selfish thing to do. Why? Because you might think ending your life will solve all problems. But it definitely will not! Coz you will leave behind tears, sadness and sometimes guilt among your loved ones. And what about your parents? They've painstakingly raised you up since you're born and the next minute, they've to bury you. That's the most disheartening thing a parent could get.
Admittedly, I've suicidal thoughts especially a few years ago, when my depressing state was at its highest. But those thoughts about my parents, leaving behind greaving loved ones etc, had prevented me from committing such a selfish act and hence I'm still well alive today. And I hope to continue to be.
So to all those reading this post, please cherish all those loved ones around you. If they appear to be in any kind of problem, please try to talk to them and help them if you can. You wouldn't know what they might be thinking and sometimes even if you could only give your listening ear, it may help them to pull away from the cliff edge.
And to those of you who might have problems or entertaining thoughts of ending your life, please have a talk to those who are close to you or even me! There's not a problem which can't be solved. Even if you can't solve it by yourself, we could still work out a solution together. And remember, although suicide is a brave thing to do, it's also a selfish one.
That's it for this post. Please talk to me if you're having troubles. Please don't make me feel guilty and punish me like the KT member. Tata and take care~!
Cherish your loved ones, cherish your life!
I'm writing this topic because yesterday night, when I was about to go to sleep, I chanced upon this thread started by a member of the KT forum. Apparently, she had just lost a good friend of hers via the suicide method. As I read on the replies the other members gave and the counter-replies she gave, I got a rough picture of what happened on that fateful day. And the story was so sad, it almost reduced me to tears.
What is more upsetting is that this member was just chatting with him(the friend) just an hour or so before he went away. Yeah, she was chatting with him that night and he was showing no signs of what he's going to do whatsoever. Then, he said he wanted to go sleep. Little did she or anyone else knew that the sleep would be eternal. That he would never wake up from his sleep again. The ironic thing is that he's the one who has been telling this KT member not to entertain any thoughts of suicides. But in the end, it seems he didn't practice what he preached.
Although nobody knew why he chose the path, it seems that most people blamed his girlfriend for causing his death. And naturally, this member blamed herself too for not being a good buddy and not spotting the signs on him. I've not experience anything like this before, but if I were in her shoes, I think I would be feeling as guilty as her too. Not spotting the depressing signs on him, not being able to help your best friend. And he's gone, just like that. Without saying any departing words, without saying goodbyes. It's such a tragedy. sigh.
Anyway, you can view his friendster's account recently set-up by that KT member here. Even reading through the testimonials is sad enough.=( To Herng Jye, though I may not know you, hope your're resting in peace bro!
On a personal note, as said earlier, I do hope I do not need to go through the same painful experience as the forumer. I personally feel ending one's life is both a brave and coward thing to do. It's really an irony. On one side, you're brave to cut off your life, to end your sufferings, and making yourself unable to live any bright future you might have. But on the other side, it's really a coward and selfish thing to do. Why? Because you might think ending your life will solve all problems. But it definitely will not! Coz you will leave behind tears, sadness and sometimes guilt among your loved ones. And what about your parents? They've painstakingly raised you up since you're born and the next minute, they've to bury you. That's the most disheartening thing a parent could get.
Admittedly, I've suicidal thoughts especially a few years ago, when my depressing state was at its highest. But those thoughts about my parents, leaving behind greaving loved ones etc, had prevented me from committing such a selfish act and hence I'm still well alive today. And I hope to continue to be.
So to all those reading this post, please cherish all those loved ones around you. If they appear to be in any kind of problem, please try to talk to them and help them if you can. You wouldn't know what they might be thinking and sometimes even if you could only give your listening ear, it may help them to pull away from the cliff edge.
And to those of you who might have problems or entertaining thoughts of ending your life, please have a talk to those who are close to you or even me! There's not a problem which can't be solved. Even if you can't solve it by yourself, we could still work out a solution together. And remember, although suicide is a brave thing to do, it's also a selfish one.
That's it for this post. Please talk to me if you're having troubles. Please don't make me feel guilty and punish me like the KT member. Tata and take care~!
Cherish your loved ones, cherish your life!
posted by AnDy AriEn at 11:26 AM
~~Love is the emblem of eternity; it confounds all
notion of time~~
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