10th Anniversary

The date has arrived again. 30th July. It holds many memories. Almost every year, I'll update this blog when this date comes. From passing my driving license on my first try when I was 18th to my very first heartbreak the year before. I was naive, misled and felt somewhat betrayed then. It took me about 1.5 years before I could go over it. Yes, it was the most depressing moment I have had in my life, before last October's tragedy. Many years have passed since that fateful year of 2003, but it seems I've still not learnt my lesson. I am still naive, easily misled and betrayed as last year's episode proved. In that aspect, I guess I haven't really grown up. Every heartbreak always leaves me with questions more than answers. Ahh.

This workplace used to be a place were I seek refuge in times crisis. A place where I would forget my problems momentarily in the comfort of jokes and laughters. A place that would cheer me up when I'm feeling down. Sad to say, it's gone now. For some unknown reasons, the place no longer gives me the kind of happy feeling, even though just for a short while, that I once had. Now, I've no place to go and feels like no one to talk to when I'm depressed.

It's sad.