I can't believe that I stayed till today

You'll know that you're really feeling down when a friend whom you've never met for a long time spotted you keep staring into space and telling you not to be emo. That happens to me earlier today when I met my soccer buddies for dinner at Seoul Garden. Well, actually this is not the first time I've been caught. Recently, I've been spotted for doing the same thing several times at work during lull periods and being asked what am I looking at. This is not good. I've lost the ability to hide the depressed feelings. Most, if not everyone, can read my feelings now. Shitto.

While on the way back, a friend talked about my family. A certain topic came up inevitably. I've been keeping a secret about something for years now. So far, I've only told one person dearest to me about it. I'm not sure if I'm ever brave enough to confront the truth, to ask what's real and what's not. I know that things won't likely change if the truth is finally out, since I've long suspected it. But sometimes, I crave for answers to have some sort of closure.


Our favorite place we used to go.
The warm embrace that no one knows.
The loving look that's left your eyes.
That's why this comes as no, as no surprise.