Nice surprise

Earlier today, I received one of the most wonderful surprise I've ever gotten. It's a care bear! Hehe. To the person who gave me this, you may not be reading this blog of mine, but this was very sweet of you! The bear, the meanings and the reason why you bought it for me.. means a lot to me. I'll promise to treasure it for as long as I can. Thank you, you. :)

I think I've iterated in several of my posts on how I've always valued friendships and my reluctance to let go of them until for some reasons or another, I couldn't. Besides family, friends are what that keeps me going every single day of my life. Each and everyone of them do bring me smiles from time to time. Well, some provides more than others, of course. But everyone of them makes my life more interesting and meaningful.

So, I suppose it's no surprise that I'll feel emotional about it whenever I feel that I'm on the verge of losing one. When friendship is put on the line and I had to make a choice, most of the time I would do my best and do whatever it takes to hang on to them. But sometimes, I am presented with a very difficult choice, especially if it concerns the feelings of other parties.

I know you've been feeling bad, guilty and all. I'm sorry that you're feeling that way. I didn't mean it to happen. I'm someone who believes in fate. Maybe it's fate that has brought us together. And experience has also taught me not to live in the world of "what ifs". It will only cause sadness cos you know that you can never rewind back the time to find out if indeed the "ifs" can become a reality. So, as far as possible, I've always tried to distant myself from imagining an alternate world of "IFs".

I have always treasured every second that we have shared in this friendship. Each and every thing that you've done means a lot to me. You've made me happy, made me alive again when I didn't believe that I could. You, have saved me. But if it indeed comes to the point that you've made a decision that eliminates what we have, then I shall respect that. As your friend, I ought to respect your decisions, even if it hurts me in the process. But, deep in my heart, I certain hope that day never comes. For I love you, my sunshine friend, and I do not want to imagine the pain of losing a friend.. great friend.