Home sweet home, or maybe not.

Yes, I'm back. And I'm tired. Tired that I could lie on my bed and fall asleep within a few minutes.

Came back to Singapore yesterday, and went out of it again to play paintball with the colleagues at JB earlier today. It was quite a fun day with many hours of playing time and laughters. And fortunately, I didn't have much bruises as souvenirs.

The erratic weather wasn't as nice though. I mean, it's better from lunch time onwards after the short spell of rain. But I started to feel giddy and have blurred visions after the first few games in the morning when the sun was scorching hot. Luckily, I managed to cool myself down and survived.

When people starts to notice your behaviour, I'm not sure whether that is a good or bad thing. I mean it can be good cos it means they care for you. But bad cos it means you're not able to hide whatever thoughts you have on your mind. I got that today. I was said to be very quiet today. Maybe I'm just tired, both mentally and physically with not enough rest. Maybe, I'm just thinking of what happened the day before.. the mistakes I've made. I'm sorry that I keep making you upset. I never meant for this to happen..

Now that I'm back, I have this even stronger feeling that the time is ticking down on me. That the time will be up soon for me. The rumours keep on coming and I hate that. Can I don't go? :(