Weak

Although it's only the beginning of Week 2, I'm beginning to feel the tiredness of having 8-6pm lessons. The fact that my wednesdays are free is by no means a great consolation. And it will only get worse once the tutorials, practicals starts next week. With my weakened immune system, I can only hope for the best.

That being said, I'm experiencing a sudden depletion of enthusiasm towards my studies. I feel like I'm dragging myself everyday to school. It seems like a chore where it shouldn't have been. I really need a constant source of motivation that will keep me going, and not those that will give me short, sudden bursts of energy. Where can I find it? I'm still looking...

When I start looking back at the past, I'm finally getting into a conclusion regarding my status. I think, all these while, I'm only attracted and excited by the process of chasing. Whatever happens after that, my interest will begin to go downhill. That pretty much sounds like a huh. Well, that's just a possibility that I've thought of other than my introvert nature. I hope I'm wrong but that seems to be the case. To all those I've hurt, intentionally or not, I would like to say I'm sorry. I have subconsciously become an ass.


I'm feeling all so sick now. A lot of things on my mind. Fever have not subside. Gotta rest again. Bye.