Maybe not today, but one day.

Sometimes I do wonder, what does the future holds for me? For instance, what will I be doing 5 years down the road? Will I stay in my current job but at a higher level, or will I be doing something else instead? Will I go home to the arms of my newly formed family, or will I still be going home to my single sized mattress? Age is catching up and I suppose it's kinda natural to think about this thing. The talks with my reservist mates further provide food for thought on this matter.

Life is too short and precious to waste. I'm no longer young. It's time I take things more seriously.

Of course, all these ultimately lie with the answers to what do I really want, and if and when the right person appears in my life.

Even if I don't have all these now, I believe I'll have them in time to come. I must continue to believe for that's one thing that will keep me going in life.

On a side note, I have promised myself that no matter what happens, no matter what shit life throws at me, I will try to keep on smiling, even if it's killing inside. For I believe, if you force yourself to smile, after a while, the anger or hurt inside you will relent and you'll eventually become better, and happier.

Maybe not today, but one day..