Disaster

Had my first mid-term test earlier today and what can I say is, sayonara to the paper. haha. Unexpected questions came up and I left a question totally blank which cost me 10 out of the 50 possible marks. Together with other errors that I have made, I will just be hoping for a pass in this test. *prays hard*

Earlier today, I saw 3 of my poly mates (who are now my seniors) in school. It's funny how I have not been seeing them for the 6 weeks before term break and today I saw all 3 of them in a day! hah.. And seeing them, it sets me wondering, "How nice it would be if I am in their shoes now! Fast forward the time and be in year 3 and graduating soon! How nice if I can teleport and bend space and time and be like Hiro from 'Heroes'!" hahaa.. Stop dreaming and come back to the real world, Fandi! ^_^

Oh yeah, let's congratulate Melody for passing her driving test today! Woohooo!! So happy for her! I still remember how happy I was 4 years back when the tester told me that I passed! hehe.. Congrats MeiFeng!

All right, got to go back to my notes again. I know how pathetic you'll think my life is. Hari Raya is just 2 days away and here I am struggling to understand the stack of papers. But I can't help it, tmr there is another mid-term to survive. Hmm..

Wish me luck peeps~!

60 mins of pain

Had a very upsetting stomach upset earlier. Went to the toilet like 5 times in an hour with the longest being 1/2 an hour. Yes, I spent that half an hour sitting on the seat and occasionally pacing myself in that small area clutching my stomach in excruciating pain. It was really unbearable!

Am feeling better now, thanks to some charcoal. Alhamdulilah.

What a night it has been. And don't ask me why I'm still awake at this hour. Notes, assignments, reports. So much for being a term break now. Well, whatever.

Got to slp now. Ciaoz!

Break!

Yipee~!

The weekend is here again! And it's one thing I, and most people, looks forward to each week!! But what makes it more special this week is that, next week is also my mid-term break! Oh yeah! Though I know there are tons of work yet to be done, I'm still looking forward for this recess week as it enables me to have a little break from all the study stress. But I wish the break is longer though.. hehe.. Oh, the mid-term break also means that 6 weeks of my uni life has passed. How time flies! Another 6 weeks or so, exams will come and then there goes my half-a-year of uni life!

These two days have not been that great, in terms of studies. There's alot of thinking to be done and they are draining up my brain cells! Went home late yesterday coz we stayed back after our geography practical trying to find answers to the questions. So, after our actual practical class ended at 4pm, we stayed back and join the next session for another 2 hours. Did 2 of the same practicals on the same day. So hardworking huh! haha

I was talking to a friend yesterday regarding our poly results and the topic of distinction grade came to our conversation. I realised that the last distinction that I got in my poly was from a module that was english-intensive! I've no idea how I managed to achieve that considering my powderful english only got a C6 for my O'Levels. haha. It has made me realise that maybe my language did improve over this few years? Hmm..

Anyway, after all the virus-infection in the beginning of the week, I'm feeling much better now. Alhamdulilah. Thanks for all the concern. Appreciate all of 'em. And to my pleasant surprise, I also received a little of vitamin m! And it makes me happy! Ok, I know I'm someone who gets easily contented. hahaa!

All right, let me sign off with something interesting that came from my chemistry lecturer. "The person on the mirror is not YOU. It is your other self!" This lecture was one of the most interesting ones since my uni life started! Nice one prof! hahaa.

Stupid

Kudos to me! I'm facing the prospect of a big fat ZERO for one of my assignments! The reason? I've forgotten to hand it in. Yes, I FORGOT!!!

The assignment was supposed to be due before midnight yesterday. And I actually have completed the assignment way before hand, which is days before. But yesterday after I got home, I was busy doing my lab report till 1a.m and the task of uploading the assignment did not cross my mind. So, after I was tired of doing my lab report, coupled with the fact that I'm still sick, I went straight to my sleep still not remembering about the assignment. This morning when I woke up, suddenly it came to my mind that I have yet to upload the file. When I went to the uploading site, the folder has been closed on midnight.

So, there it is. One of the stupid mistake I have ever made. And I only got myself to blame for not submitting it earlier.

So depressing.


Everything seems to be against me these recent days...

Sick and Food

I don't like to eat when I'm sick. Everything taste the same, or rather, tasteless. It prevents me from enjoying what my taste buds are experiencing and it's really not fair to the person who prepares the food. Hmm, I can't wait to be well again.


I'm lacking vitamin c and maybe, my doses of vitamin m as well...

Sick

I have fallen sick now. Am running a fever, having a flu, headache and sore throat, and my body temperature is hot..

BUT yet,

I can't rest and it's not because I do not want to. But because I can't afford to. There are still lots of tutorials, assignments and revisions yet to be done. And time is certainly not by my side for me to have a rest.

I'm living a pathetic life, I know.

Low Morale

I feel so demoralised.

When I look at my maths tutorial due next week, all I could give was a loud gasp!I could do NONE of the questions!!! With this kind of state, I really wonder how I'm going to survive the upcoming test at the end of the month!

And I'm falling sick again, something which I can't afford to.


I really want to concentrate but I can't, for my mind is wandering elsewhere...

ORD!!

Hey, guess what? It's 11/09/2008 today and that means my ord date has finally arrived.. or at least theoretically. Yeah, although today marks my 2 yrs since I joined the slave union and I've gotten back my pink IC, I still can't ORD on this date! Argghhh, how irritating!! Never mind.

To all my fellow 125th intake mates: Happy Ord-ing guys! To myself: Well, few more years to go before I can finally say, "ORD-oh!!"

Anyway, it has been a tiring few days for me. Both mentally and physically. So many stuffs to chuck inside my head and there's still so many things to do. Yesterday was especially tiring, due to walking exercises I did with my good ol' poly friends. haha! Yeah, after my last geography lesson yesterday, Samantha, Zhiyong and myself went over to Vivo to meet our old young ibu, Meixuan! Went window shopping for a while before we decided to go to Cineleisure. After that, we practically walked the whole of Orchard Rd heading towards PS before finally taking a bus to Funan. Had some decent meal(and also to break my fast) there before heading home. I was so tired when I reached home that I fell asleep straightaway after I had a bath. Nevertheless, I do enjoy the short meet-up that we had. Made me relive again the good ol' poly times.. =)

How time flies. I'm already finishing my 5th week in the uni. A week more to go before my 1 week term break and then there is a 3-tests combo! Arrgghh, why does all the test have to fall during my hari raya week! Shucks!!

Why?

What happens when people around you whom you've been regularly keeping in touch with, suddenly stop contacting you? What if they suddenly stop replying to your smses, msges etc for reasons unknown to you? How would you feel? It sure feels sucky of course!

It's making me confused of all sorts, thinking hard, what wrong have I done? I'm fine with the ignorance, but I just need answers. I just wanna know what's the reason behind the silence and the sudden change in attitude towards me! The feeling is like being hanged in the air, you know. At least, please tell me why, once and for all, so that I can have some sort of closure. Cos if not, you'll just be dragging this over time and that is really not fair for me! And please don't lie to me cos I hate liars...


My back hurts so much now that it feels like it's going to crack! argh!

It's time to put a stop

I have decided.

That I won't keep thinking negatively anymore.
That I won't disappoint my friends and family.
That I won't be lazy.
That I won't keep thinking about the past because ultimately, I can't change it.
That I won't keep the phrase 'What ifs' in my mind anymore.
That I won't embarrass the malay community.
That I won't be emotional(negatively) anymore.

I will always try to think positively.
I will accept whatever challenges that are laid out for me and do the best I could.
I will work hard in everything I do.
I will think about the future instead because that's something I can change.
I will stop procrastinating and do what I always wanted to do.
I will show others that my race can do it too.
I will try to be happy, as far as possible.


I have changed the site's music appropriately for this transition. No more all those sad sad lovey-dovey songs. And as what my former team-mate says, 'Hit the beat!' hahaa.. I may change the blog's skin too, if I have time in the near future.

Oh yeah, I wanna wish all muslims Selamat Mengerjakan Ibadah Puasa! May God bless u always!

And before I end, just wanna share something I learnt earlier. Today, my maths tutorial was delivered through a new medium, Mandarin! Yeah, I learnt maths today through the chinese language! hahaa.. What a funny tutor I have! ^_^

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Well, with that, and after 30 days of silence, I guess it's time to move on too. But if one day in future we are to cross our paths again, I will still cherish it. But for now, let's just move on...